sometimes,
i told myself,
not to be pessimistic ,
but,
now the environment making me to become hopeless.
as i grow up,
many things start changing,
and i can look the world clearly with my own eyes.
i am starting to understand what are my "born-make" problems.
i know what is lacking in my life.
but so what?
sometimes,
i cannot make any change towards that situation.
it is like a big high wall,
when i am trying to climb over it,
the height of the wall is increasing.
what the hell could i make to this suck world?!